*Cue rant here*
So, I'm getting throughly frustrated with parts life at the current moment. I constantly look at Facebook, seeing the various statuses of how this person has plans with this person, or that person is hanging out with this person. It's great that they have plans, but where does that leave me? Where I am currently-on my couch, watching Greek on Netflix....alone. I realize alone time is GREAT but I get lonely just like everyone else.
Once I finally have plans with someone, I find myself so consumed in wanting the outing to last forever because it is so much fun, that I feel as though I miss out on the actual hanging out part. When it's over, I find myself feeling more alone than I did before. I love my friends, but having all this "free time" (or time I should totally be doing my homework or housework), makes it really hard to just be alone.
There is a silver lining however. Being in this kind of situation shows me (reminds me more so) just how amazing my true friends are. Every minute I miss them is a constant reminder of how much I care about them. Through thick and thin, they'll always be there for me-especially when I need them the most. My girls aren't my friends-they're my sisters. I'd do anything for them, and know, even if it was difficult, they would do the same for me. I truly love them for the amazing women they are. I hope they know this...
Another fitting one..."A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart." Kathleen Grove
Until tomorrow...
That's why I hate Facebook so much—and why I spend so much time on it. Something about it makes it a drug, a substitute for actual human companionship that only ends up reminding you that you don't have any.
ReplyDeleteI'm working on getting better at being alone, or at least thinking about working on it. There's so much more I could be doing with my brain than refreshing MetaFilter every fifteen minutes...