Continued

For fear of coming off "ranty" in my last post, I wanted to clarify...

I'm not trying to sound like some snotty girl who expects everyone to come to her and shower her with the kind of love and devotion we see between the characters on "Friends." I'm simply going through this process of finding out I don't value myself the way I should. I tend to (in most cases) surround myself with people that don't make me feel so great, and in turn, cause me to get very upset and enter some pretty low and dark places emotionally. I'm not saying someone should cut a friend out of their lives because they are "up to par" that week. I'm simply saying it is good to know where your expectations are, as well as knowing what you need from others. I just fear I've been having constant "sub-par" friendships, and learning (or striving to learn) how to live upset 5 out of 7 days of the week. I think everyone, at one point or another, can disappoint someone--I'm sure I do in some way shape or form upset a patient, friend, partner, etc. in some cases. BUT with that being said, I recognize this and do whatever I can to make amends (apology, etc.). Expectations, and a lack of meeting them for that matter, isn't an end all be all. Step up. If you know you're being a not so great friend, apologize and be there. If a friend is reaching out to you for help, help them as long as it won't harm you. All we have is each other on this planet. Sure, all we can trust when we lay our heads on our pillows at night is ourselves, but we're human beings. We CRAVE human interaction. Without it, we would basically be cells walking around aimlessly. What I'm getting at (and I apologize for the disorganization of this post), is basically that, although we do not NEED others for survival, stability, etc. (well, that isn't all true, but that's for another blog), having others around is a definite benefit. When this benefit turns harmful as a friend is not being a true "friend," real damage can be done.